Ask me something then
FuriousA little bit a lot angry.
So I'ma just rant here for a bit.
All I wanted to do was spend more time with my friends... I really need to be with people who give a damn if I start crying out of the blue instead of ridiculing me for it.
I need to be able to open up, but more and more my family tells me not to. I'm supposed to know EVERYTHING about my friends but they're not allowed to know if there's ANYTHING wrong with me. So what's what going to do? All that does is make me hide the fact that there is something wrong. From everyone.
But you know something? There are things VERY very wrong!
I should be able to sleep over at a friends house without a two week notice, without my family meeting there's, without getting in trouble for hinting that my house is not where I want to be.
It's a totally ridiculous thought to my family that I don't want to be in the house ALL THE TIME.
I shouldn't care what they think about me, about the way I dress and the friends I make. My sister puts me down about everything. Saying that I just dress the way my friends do to fit in... She says that I should just "be myself". Well yeah, I should, but who the hell is she, thinking that she knows who "myself" is? I do wear some of the same things my friends do... because I like there styles and I want to try them too.
I'm still trying to figure out who "myself" is and what I like to wear... for now, LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE ABOUT IT. kay?
I am so frustrated.
Especially with the stupid new School year coming up... It was hard enough watching a few of my friends graduate earlier this year. They're all moving up in life somehow. I don't want to be left behind...
The "back to school" supplies actually bring a lump to my throat. Just the sheer truth that I'll never be smart enough to go to school, let alone graduate let alone go to collage. And for what? I have no ambitions... and I blame myself for it even though I know it's because my FAMILY has drilled into my mind that I am sure to FAIL. This is messed up... I know there's no avoiding problems in life. But I'd like of like to have problems that other people have... like studying for a test, worrying about the Csap test... NOT worrying about when the next time I'll get a hug is. That is just SAD.
I'm not looking for attention... though I do probably need some. I need to get my mind off of things but it's hard when I have to keep coming back here.
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I do not believe the presence of moisture in the air is sufficient reason to overturn society\'s usual sensible taboo against wielding piked clubs at eye level... u.u
[link] -go on, click, i dare ya x]
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Broken Angels whisper in our ears.
If Destiny were a place, you would know where you belong.
Smile, its the art of life.
We're all Fuck ups, 'cause people percieve us as such. The question is, "What kind of Fuck up are you?"
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When I die, it won't have mattered what kind of car I drove, what kind of money I made, how many possessions I had, how smart I was or if I finished school.
But the world may be a better place because I was important in the eyes of a child.
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Siss on you pister. you ain't so mucking fuch. What makes you think you're so smucking fart?
O.o
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No matter how bad things get, stay strong and move along.
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Forsaken always.
Member of the Writer's Guild: [link]
If someone does fan art from my works then I will love them forever!
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When I die, it won't have mattered what kind of car I drove, what kind of money I made, how many possessions I had, how smart I was or if I finished school.
But the world may be a better place because I was important in the eyes of a child.
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- =macro-club
- =SkyAndNatureClub
- ~stopBSL
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When I die, it won't have mattered what kind of car I drove, what kind of money I made, how many possessions I had, how smart I was or if I finished school.
But the world may be a better place because I was important in the eyes of a child.
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